November 11, 2002
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It’s 7pm. There was supposed to be a house meeting at 6, but I had a mini meltdown from stress earlier in the day.
I watched it happen, too. I was upstairs trying to do relaxing things. X came upstairs and asked me if I wanted in on ordering a pizza. Making that decision was the one thing that was too much, and boom.
“Hey, want to order some pizza?”
(Long pause during which I watch the stress spill over into emotional upset-ness.) “Damn.”
“I guess that’s a no…”
The irony is that I was going to try and come up with some workable solutions for this stuff at the house meeting. I don’t want people to have to feel like they live in a monastery or anything, but I also want to let the two new housemates know about my needs. Of course this happens and I can’t have that discussion now.
I feel utterly powerless.
We’ll have to reschedule my power for another day. Hah.
Comments (3)
You always keep your power. You just need to realize that it rears it’s head when you want it to. I’m not sure what the powwow is all about but you have every right to assert your position on your roommates. The drama will come if and only if they choose not to compromise. Peace and Love alfredNYC
time to move out. for your own sanity.
This day — Nov. 11 — was my 34th birthday and I had bronchitis. I had to sleep sitting up that night. I had to go home and have my parents take care of me.
So in retrospect and belatedly … I feel your pain!!