March 26, 2006

• I'm in a crappy mood, dominated by the desire to just scream random shit at people. A crow just flew by the window, and I want to go yell at it for a while. Fukkin' crow!

  Not really. Just I want to. I can't turn it off, and that's kindasorta OK, except that it's frustrating.

  Part of being me is prolonged intellectual and emotional states of mind, and I just have to wait and metabolize it, much like a drunk has to just sit around and not do anything stupid before they sober up.

  I hate this feeling. I want it to be gone. It usually takes more to start it, but since I'm a little stressed as it is, it didn't take much this time.

  People who know me often say I'm not particularly emotional, but what they'd mean if they knew what they were talking about is that I'm usually careful about what sorts of things I get upset about. Because I'll be upset over time, even if the need has long since evaporated.

  Grr.

  • 7:26 pm
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