Alice has a picture of the San Antonio river walk on her site.
Some of my earliest memories are of the river walk. Somehow I remember being a very tiny kid, no more than 5 or 6 I suppose, with my parents on the river walk. It’s somewhere between memory and dream, since it’s kind of impossible for some of what I remember to have happened. I can cite Fellini’s ‘Roma’ to give some kind of idea, but not a lot of people have seen ‘Roma.’
The most vivid part is being at a glass blower’s shop. It’s the time around twilight, when there’s still a little light outside, and I’m with my parents in a storefront that would be completely empty except for a single row of glass trinkets on a plywood surface placed over big rolls of burlap that look like giant cinnamon rolls.
The whole place is dark, lit only by the dimly glowing orange of the glass furnace, which occupies the entire back wall. I’m enthralled by the tiny glass objects, caught up in the play of the orange light through their Newtonian surfaces.
One of the objects in particular draws my attention. I don’t know why. Maybe I had just seen ‘Bambi,’ or maybe we had seen deer along the road in central Texas, but I was drawn to a set of three amber-colored glass deer. There was a large mother deer, and two babies, and they were connected by tiny chains.
That is, there was a tiny copper collar on the mother deer, and from this collar came two tiny chains, and these chains were attached to two even tinier collars on the baby deer’s necks. I immediately assumed the chains had to do with keeping the set together, though thinking about it subsequently, I’ve always wondered what was up with those chains.
My parents were talking to the proprietor, a Mexican man in his 20s. He had re-opened the store so I could come in and find something. I don’t remember the back-story there; I must have been upset because my siblings had gotten to buy something and I hadn’t. I don’t remember causing a scene, but I might have. And I have no idea why, of all the places on the river walk, I would have ended up in the glass trinket shop.
What’s most dream-like about this part of the memory is that warm otherworldly orange glow, and the subsequent re-emergence into the cool twilight, deer and babies in hand. I felt like the world was full of wonder and peace, and that everywhere around the world there must be places as good and nice as the San Antonio river walk. I don’t remember having feelings like that as a kid, except in this fragment. I suppose that could be why I remember it, or why I’ve transformed it into what it is.