Sometimes he does this:
He sits alone in a booth at a restaurant. The waiter takes his order, he sips his Coke, he fidgets a little while, and then he closes his eyes.
First comes hearing. Pre-teens in the booth behind him, talking about downloading ring tones for their cell phones.
A man at a table to his left is studiously avoiding talking to his wife about work. It sounds bad… She doesn’t bring it up, he doesn’t volunteer anything. She gossips about the neighbors, he rants about politics. What he’s been doing for the past eight hours is a conspicuous black hole in their relationship.
Waitress taking order at the booth opposite him from the girls. An elderly man and his wife both want the salmon fettucini. They laugh about having ordered the same thing.
He’s listening to all these people, and somehow he’s holding the conversations in his head. It’s like opera, when all the characters are singing different narratives and you can barely keep up. Keeping up, in fact, is what’s interesting about it; the stories themselves are pretty boring.
Boring like the music. Cover band versions of ABBA and Corey Hart songs, re-performed to sound like the original, but also to shave a few pennies off royalties owed. Bad music performed badly, for bad reasons. He thinks: ‘Sunglasses At Night’ is not a good companion for a seafood sampler platter and a margarita.
Whenever he performs this exercise, he can watch his mind struggle for visual input. Much is imagined visually, like a dream. The pre-teens, the troubled relationship, the elderly couple… All have faces and postures and attitudes and clothing. Every gap in the scene is filled in, like taking light to every corner of a shadow. The visual scene glows in his mind. And then, when the mind is done struggling, the scene disappears and is replaced by… something else.
It changes from seen to scene. He thinks: This is how bats feel about their environment – they hear it. They know it by hearing it. Blind people don’t see by hearing, they know by hearing. He thinks about wearing sunglasses in order to pretend to be blind. Sunglasses at night. He laughs.
“I’m glad you think it’s funny.”
He opens his eyes. A plate full of fried shrimp, moving across the table right to him. He looks up at the waiter, motions him closer, to share a secret.
“I once was blind, but now I see.”
“Hallelujah. Enjoy your shrimp.”