November 21, 2002

• One of the most annoying things about being me is having to sit and watch while I ‘recover’ from stuff.
  
  For instance, I just called the cable modem people, to change the billing over to me from an ex-housemate. This is a few months after the fact to begin with; I’ve been putting it off to avoid having to talk to someone on the fone and tell them to switch the billing over. (This is one of the other annoying parts of being me. I proceed at a glacial pace, and it screws up so much of my life it’s not even funny.)
  
  Anyway, I’m now listening to old, reassuring music and doing Xanga and reading usenet in order to ‘recover.’ This will last one or two hours. No amount of psychology will help me not need to do this; there’s only relative urgency to do other things. This need to ‘recover’ can be superceeded, and in such a case the need to recover will compound with the added stress of the superceeding urgent need.
  
  So I have to manage stress like a diabetic manages blood sugar, and I’m fucking tired of it.

  • 6:55 pm
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